Happy 4th year 


Hey there, whats Up?

Believe it or not, I am on the way of being a 4rd year Medical student. Nothing special about being a student or doctor, it just feel the same. Only the pay make the major different. Once in a while, I do feeling nausea for certain people that think being in medical line is great, huge and awesome+ look cool and popular. Oh please, stop all that nonsense. We are just your future slave, and trust me, we do crack under pressure and normal human being too.

Well, I am not here to lodge a complain, or writing the pathetic life of medstuds. Everyone has their own choice, and I have chose mine. Neither do I regret, nor do I feel happy. Its just the feeling of wanting to finish this course A.S.A.P and start making money. It does sound materialistic, but that the reality. You can’t do medicine( treating, prescribing medicine) without money. How do you buy supplies of med, surgical tools and manpower without $$$. So please rethink back if somebody say:

I am gonna treat you for free without any cost. That is Bullshit!


Sorry for the harsh words, but that the reality. And the insurance company does control the whole medicine world. Health provider are just slave to these Insurance company. They decide everything, from mode of treatment, and deciding either certain patient get surgical intervention or not, depending on their insurance coverage and financial background. So, if you don’t have HEALTH INSURANCE esp in US, most likely you will be dump without treatment. So once again, who say medical is meant to be free for the public?

That how bad our world are. Revolving around sucking money from the poor guys, pushing them to their limit just to supply enough money to the rich guys. Well, that is the real meaning of capitalism. And does you ever realise, since we were born, we are meant to have loan unless you are born as SILVER SPOON, having filthy rich family. Hurm…….

We might realise, as we grow older, our thought and wisdom get sharper, unless you are idiot, or simply don’t bother to change ourself. Doesn’t mean that you will turn into some kind of philosopher, but the decision making process is getting better and better.

You cross the path where you need to choose the acadamic course which gonna sail your in different field. Getting in relationship, establishing family life a.k.a MARRIAGE and jumps into reality, WORKING LIFE. It does get crazy when thinking about our incapability to transform ourself from adolescent into fully adult, equip with great responsibilty, determine your life on yourself. If you succeed, the world will be your greatest destination. Wrong choice, counting for death to take all your grief and sadness.

So…..to all my reader, life is sucks. But there will always be good end to it. Depending on how you perceive life. I am not gonna mention to be positive at all time. That phrase just work in ideal heavenly life. But we are human, full with flaws and mistake. So, just think moderately at all time, and think positively at correct time and place. Let hope that life gonna go easy on us. And the most important, do pray to God, be good to parents and humankind, and appreciate life to the fullest.

Muar, Nov 12, 0315


Back to Reality


Welcome home, dear Malaysian!

Exactly on the 14th of March, I am back to Malaysia, leaving India for good😂

And 2 days after that, my reality as a medical student for Phase 2 in Malaysia start, and it does give me turbulent shake a bit to adjust my life here, even this is my hometown. Lets start with my 1st posting : Obstetric & Gynaecology ( sakit puan🙈)

I hate this posting in Manipal, as have to travel to Karkala via the shitty road about 45 min from Manipal. Here in Muar, my house is just 5 min by car to the hospital. First impression about the ward, damn nice with excellent hygiene. My first day start with bed side teaching which last for 3 hours. I skip my breakfast and it cost me shaky legs and musical belly sound.

Life in OBG is simple, do anything you can to make sure both baby and mom stay safe and sound. It does sound simple, but it isn’t. Your daily activity revolve on V-J-J, Ultrasound and EDD ( estimated date of delivery). Not to forget, everyday have to ask personal question such as

  • When is your last menstrual period
  • Do you use condom or any means of conception
  • How about your period, tell me more about it
  • Well, planned pregnancy or opss, accidentally shoot out happen💪
  • and many more, surely you dont want to know more….hehe

I got to be posted in Labor Room, a special place for woman to deliver her baby safely. Thank to all the experience in Manipal, i get used to all the blood, faeces fragment, smelly fluid which just suddenly gush out while the mom push herself to get out the baby. Gross right, but think of it carefully, we used to be inside it once upon a time. Hurm!

Got a chance to assist in episiotomy repair which took more than 30 minutes. Poor HO, pity her doing the thing alone. Haha. That gonna be me in another 2 years exactly in her position!

And everything goes on not-so-well for another 6 weeks. Full of women problem: prolapse, Pap smear, ovarian cyst, amd the list goes on endlessly. But one thing for sure, OBG certainly an interesting posting due to certain things which is

  • More relax than my current posting which is MEDICINE
  • You have double joy : saving mother and playing with the baby
  • Dont be surprise, most women even the Islamic one does not have high preference to opt for OBG as speciality in future. Reason, too busy, NO time for family. This is real story, I dont make it up. But not all larh, dont blame me!
  • Too much Ustaz in FB which condemn male doctor which works in this department. Well, this is my opinion. Trust me, you will have no sexual desire towards patient after watching normal delivery for the first time even if the patient is Miss Universe. And some more, all patient come with disease, and some of them can make you have sexual depression for the whole life. Aha😩
  • That all…………..

Nice posting, but suck on the exam part. Hope God bless me and give me good mark even for the rubbish answer. Haha

Will write about my current posting later. But Medicine is definitely the toughest among other posting. Hopefully I will continue to survive in this posting👌

Thanks, and have a good day!

Rule of Life💪

Hey dear friends….Whats Up???

Time is 1.22 am(Manipal time), and here I am, still awake with eyes that never know how to differentiate between day and night!

I guess, my biological clock is totally mess up, and will take time to recover from all the sleepless night I had for the last 5 years. Well, that not the main things I wanna shared with u guys👉

I had some observant time when I was alone….And I come up with several formula…But not as complicated as E=mc2 derived by Uncle Einstein…

This is the formula which had keep me awake and survive in med school for the past 2.5 years…So basically my rule of life a.k.a Survival Tips…haha


1. Never be afraid of exam. Even u had no time to revise all the syllabus, trust me…ur lecturer won’t had time and questions to cover all the topics…

So be selective!!! With a bit of luck too

2. Never chase for attendence. I never chase for it and will never. But don’t skip too much class like me😬.


It’s simple. U will never learn in class 100% at all time. Skip class, and have a break…Maybe its time for your brain to synthesise new protein and enhance your memory size.

3. If had time, go travel. U may save up to 100 millions $, but those experience, soft skills, endurance and disaster in the trip is > than your money.

Is you learn all those stuff in class???😕

4. Always and never separate religious item in your life. Once I had a bump with someone, who said I am happy with my life now, I had family, richness, complete house and cars! I don’t need God…I had my family to solve my problem!

Yes, for the time being,you might had everybody including UN, police and 911. But,

Just imagine yourself stuck in middle of desert, or in somewhere planet…did any human able to save you other than the Almighty God or Baghwan or Lord or whatever…

Just be realistic…All human are helpless. We are nothing than bunch of cell tied together, limited power and have no control even on our own heart!

5. FAMILY. I guess the word itself is self explanatory

6. Always stay positive. If you can’t, try to stay neutral. Don’t ask me how as I am learning the trick too. I believe this might be the keypoint of successful life.

I might just ruled out some rule which just cover bit of the life section. But hey, its my rule of my life….Haha

That all from my side. Will keep blogging next time🆗

Till then, lots of love from 👳


So Let Recap Part 2

Namaste. Tumhe kaise ho?

Haha…Just a simple Hindi sentence about how are you? Since we gonna talk more about travelling in India.

So, let continue the travelog with the next destination in my first vacation.

Its NEW DELHI. The capital city of India. Less busier than Mumbai,  blessed with heritage colonial building, modern road system, and nice Northern cuisine.

Well, in Delhi we manage to visit several places such as
Jama Masjid ( the oldest mosque in India), Chadni Chowk (like Petaling Street in Malaysia, but more traditional and hectic),
Karim Briyani Restaurant (which local claim to be the best restaurant serving Biryani in Delhi),trying the new MRT line in Delhi( which pretty amazing considering I am in India…haha),Hazrat Nizamuddin Train Station ( one of the oldest and busiest train station in India, and for those who join tabligh, well….its is the biggest markas for tabligh in the world).

The Qutub Mina
The Qutub Mina

In front of the Jama Masjid
In front of the Jama Masjid

Le Malaya vs Le India....The guard is force to throw some smile
Le Malaya vs Le India….The guard is force to throw some smile

The Gate of India
The Gate of India

Next, we head to SHIMLA. The capital city for Himachal Pradesh state. The journey from Delhi using Tempo ( traveler van) took almost 12 hours. Only 1/3 of the road is highway, the rest is hairpin bends with endless corner.

Reaching Shimla, we head to the skiing area, called as Kufri. Here, we totally act like little child. Snow is everywhere. Where got snow in Malaysia except ABC weh! Haha. Dont ask how we act….Let the picture speak for us!



Our first snow man
Our first snow man








Let me be your snow dream!!!
Let me be your snow dream!!!

Last destination for this trip MANALI.

First impression, its damn cool man! We had the lowest ever temperature in the life, its -17°C. Haha, even more colder than my house freezer. We arrived from Shimla after 10 hours journey, and the road we went was small, on the left side is rough natural rock wall, and on the right side is steep bank which plunged into gorge of rapid flow river. Quite thrilling and heart pounding experience everytime we take a look at the window.

There is no need to go anywhere, the snow is everywhere!!!

We had our first snow fall, the feeling of melting snow crystal in the palm, and fresh snow taken into mouth. Wordless, the best moments at that time. Next, we head to Manali skiing centre, and had our first snow vehicle ride and skiing.



Like a BOSS
Like a BOSS
Aktiviti panaskan badan memasing
Aktiviti panaskan badan memasing
Our new member....Mr Snow 'Ali' Graham
Our new member….Mr Snow ‘Ali’ Graham
The cliche portrait together before skiing
The cliche portrait together before skiing
The ice is damn thick!
The ice is damn thick!

Skiing seems easy, but actually is not. The first fall completely thrown you away, and I had the feeling of ACL torn, well, med student obsession…haha. The best part is enjoying hot bowl of Masala Maggi and Chai ( tea in Hindi). Its never be enough with one order, so we went on ordering and ordering more😆

Before we head back to Delhi, we had the climax activity of this trip, PARAGLIDING & White Water Rafting. First, we had to ride on a car to climb up the mountains, where there is a cliff for the launching. Next, the pilot will hook you with the equipment and parachute, and he sat behind you.

Next, run as fast as possible down the cliff, and you was already on air flying like a bird!

The departure pad
The departure pad
Waiting for ATC approval
Full throttle ON
Full throttle ON
Have a safe flight with ur Captain
Have a safe flight with ur Captain

And that the end of this wonderful journey. Hope u guys enjoy reading my travelog

Bye2 , xOxO

Prejudice. Psychiatry. Patient

Hi peeps, how is your day?

I am currently in Psychiatry posting in the V semester of my MBBS course. Really interesting, eye-opener experience but less busy compared to Medicine posting.

Problem in Psych Department!

Most people thought psychic is all about crazy, mad, gila or sewel. Well man, it is more than that. Psych Dept deals with substances abuse like drug, alcohol, poison etc, pain disorder, anxiety, stress and many more.

In our head, we only think about crazy hopeless guy wandering around without purpose, holding stick, and chasing people. Frankly speaking, my stigma completely changed as most of the time, patients are completely normal exteriorly, have good education background and decent looking human!

So, what is their problem until get admitted into WAD SAKIT JIWA?

The problem itself lies in our society minds. Let me give you one simple example. If your friend had fever, you will simply drive them to the local clinic, have Paracetamol and the next day, he already on his feet going to class.

Next day, how about if your same friend starting to talk to the wall, ignoring himself by not taking shower and eat, starting to shout and laugh continuously and many more abnormal act perceive by society as mad and crazy? Surely, you have two options at most, either sends him to hospital or just dump & disregard him as your friend until he went normal again.

But I can bet, more than 50% of community will simply dump that kind of person, as we simply has lack of knowledge in psychiatry. It is being regards that by having such person will bring humiliation, disgrace the family dignity and mess up with normal life. Well, that is the stigma and prejudice that has rooted in our community since the early civilisation. But, it is not completely our fault, it is the situation in which we we raise up maybe?

Its OK to get scared being close to psychiatric patient, but we should not dump them away. Do you know that most of the mental disorder is treatable, and the patient will become normal again. YES!, that is a fact which come with several rules before it can be accomplish. The rules are?

  1. Just Google, read and identify certain common psychiatric symptoms.
  2. Please bring them to Psychiatric Department or nearest hospital, not to witchman or your favourite family Bomoh.

    You have arrive at your destination!
    You have arrive at your destination!
  3. Never ever dump them, they need your support and motivation. Are you gonna dump your mom if she had mental problem. You would not do that right, so don’t do it to another person!
  4. Just bear with patient during the rehabilitation and treatment process, it may take up to years…But nothing will replace the moment when your loved one come back being normal!

Sound simple rights?

To change the situation, we must change first. So, let gear up and help the mental disorder patient. If u don’t, you might be the next victim and succumb to the cycle of community which neglect mental patient.

Anyway, that all my friends. Hope you enjoy reading it!!

So Let Recap Part 1

Hi everyone…

Today gonna be another 59 days before I’m gonna say bye2 to GandhiLand. Frankly speaking, there are too many places in my bucket list which I really wish to visit. For the sake of those who would really love to travel in India, so I really want to share my experience with you guys! Hope it gonna be helpful and informative enough.

So, let begin the journey during my first semester break, which is around Feb 2013.

Our first journey is by taking train from Udupi to Mumbai, which is approximately 14 hours. But, the train condition is damn good, with AC and variety of food (by the hawker), and blanket with soft pillow for your comfortable sleep.


MUMBAI- reach it around 6 am, and trust me, the smell is too much to be taken into the nostril. A huge metropolitan, financial city for India. We head to our hotel, have refreshment, and started our 1 day journey in India. The places that we went in Mumbai are :

  1. Taj Hotel
  2. Gateway of India
  3. Elephanta Island
  4.  Haji Ali Dargah
  5. Mumbai Metro ( exactly like in Slumdog Millionaire movie)


Gateway of India



Next destination….UDAIPUR

A love city, which I personally describe as my all time favourite place in India ( 5 star rated). Good people, nice weather, ancient and glorious palace, and surrounded by magnificent lake.


At the famous Udaipur City Palace


Girls sitting in the middle of Lake Udaipur

Then, let go to Jaipur, the PINK (not so) CITY. We went there by train for about 7 hours. Jaipur is like a paradise for the jewellery lover. No wonder my best friend, Terry bought himself a diamond. Not to mention about the girls eye were sparkled by the diamond, ruby, jade and many more…Haha. But, Jaipur is more than that. Located in the desert surrounded by mountain range, it is a mid-climate city.

The famous Jantar Mantar, India historical astronomy site
The famous Jantar Mantar, India historical astronomy site

The glorious Hawa Mahal…not so mahal lah


Camel riding as in Malaysia, no camel is easily available…ahaha

Well, next destination should be known to everybody. So let the picture speaks to all of you….

Its AGRA babyyyyy

In front of Taj Mahal entrance gate

Typical modest pose in front of Taj Mahal, while sitting on the famous Princess Diana chair…

No caption needed. Too much perfection…haha

Well, that all for the part 1, will continue soon. Have a nice day peeps!!!


#Who wants to be a doctor


I want!!!  
So no one I guess…

The truth is, don’t be afraid. There is nothing bad being a medical student, or devoted your life to become a doctor. Don’t judge us just by the rumor or your ancestor story, reliability just up to 33.33% or less.

Busy. Anti-social. Nerd. No GFs & blah…
Who said so? Your head la!